Daisy

It was the first time knowing you. I was in my junior high school and I was liking you at that time. I remember your smile and your everything. The way that you love sports more than me. And that you are so into masculinity. What a disgrace I was If people should think of me. But I know that I was drawn into you so much. So much that I was falling in love.

I didn't know how it was. But seeing you smiling so wide with all your teeth makes my heart leap with joy. Like butterflies all inside it. It feelt so funny because I never felt the same before. You already got two fems with you. I was not really a fem myself. I felt like I was a neut. But, what could I really understand? It was so peachy at that time. Sometimes, things felt so gray and deep in understanding. Sometimes it just felt so peachy and so young. So naive and pure like I didn't understand anything at all.

You was so good in your soccer. I did not know that I would fall in love with someone into soccer. But I guess it was coming because I was not into sports and yet you were into it so much. You become a north pole to me. It was all so strange yet I came to understand it more lately. It was so funny to me. I didn't know what to say but maybe I was so innocent at that time that I would blurp anything out of my mind. But now, I don't even know what to say about it. Because, I truly fell in love with you. And I think I really lost to you. I had lost and as long as I keep loving you, I will keep being lost to you. What a funny feeling this is.